January 12, 2020 A Daily Occurrence

I used to have a few indoor plants. I guess I wasn't very good at nurturing them. One by one, they disappeared a.k.a. died and were tossed in the compost. Fast forward a few years, and a move across town, I have plants again! I've decided to start smart. House them all in the main living area, so that I'm visually reminded to care for them.
Speaking of being visually reminded.......chatted with someone yesterday from what I call "old life" {more on yesterday in a later post}. The memory was from so long ago, that I actually wasn't positive where this person fit in the timeline of life until someone reminded me, "that time at our house when......." And then I was like: OH RIGHT! And then having that memory come up, another from many years before emerged. Something I hadn't thought of since it actually happened! Just like the mirrors in this image, so my memories can be. Distant, blurry and out of focus; then a mix of familiarity and reminders draws the events out into focus. I feel grateful that these events are not part of my life now. I will leave them back in "old life." What did I feel when these memories rose to the surface? To be honest: a bit nauseous, a moment of sadness and even a ripple of anger. But, just like my new plants, I will nurture and care for what is now instead of what was then. Not looking behind, but gazing forward to what is in front me: Life and Love.